At the end of 2012 I stayed in my apartment reading comic books. I didn't feel like going out and getting wasted to usher in the new year. My girlfriends weren't stoked that I was staying home but that's what I wanted and sometimes it's so difficult when they want to hang out all the time. I really enjoy my alone time.
Alone time, that is something I have achieved in the last year. Along with many other things. This has been the best year in my life. 2012 was an amazing time. I started the year with goals involving my first semester at the University of Vermont. I also was waiting to get into government subsidized housing. I started the year doing both. Both didn't work out. University of Vermont gave me out of state residency and charged me so much I could not cover the tuition in loans. Because I could not cover the tuition, they wanted me to start paying immediately. So I left school due to stress trying to figure out how to pay all of that money. That didn't stop me from taking tap dance classes though, my first dance class. I started working at COTS full time for a temporary position. The government subsidized housing was a program through the homeless shelter that I lived in, there were rules. I had to be home by ten, had chores I had to do, and no guests. Like all government housing, my rent was 30%, but I made so much money at the time 30% was $530!! I could just get my own apartment, and so I did. I also happened to get a smart phone. David started talking to me again and bought me an iPhone 4S. We started talking more regularly, the beginning of getting my brother back. :D. I moved out the restrictive housing and stayed with Buzz until June apartments opened up. It was the first time I was free in nine months! No curfew! No assigned chores! And no living with at least 5 other people, and homeless kids at that.
Living with Buzz was fun though we didn't care for that apartment too much and had limited things. We had a tv and a bed, and a PS3 that I bought him. Of course I had my mountain of books, clothes, and cassettes but those are extra. We had two plates and two bowls. Our frying pan was the former person who lived there's and was very beaten up. I worked hard finding an apartment and found this cute little thing downtown. I could have pets and there was a full bathtub, the main things I wanted. Plus, all the walls are bright colors! Bathroom is a nice pastel purple, it was the cherry on tiop.
Before I moved in though, I saw my family for the first time since I moved back to Vermont. I wasn't fucked up anymore with depression and drugs. The trip was amazing I that I saw my little brothers who are my pride and joy. I even briefly saw my niece Emma Leigh. She is just wonderful. The only problem with the trip is that besides the children, everyone is fucked up. I never really noticed how bad it was, no I did but I maybe I was too busy feeling sorry for myself to care. It hurt to see my family suffer money problems and stress issues and relationship grief and broken dreams, I want them to be happy! None the less the trip was a good idea and it was nice to go on a vacation. The pictures are here.
When we moved in to our new apartment, we didn't have a table or chairs, or any house stuff really. Buzz and I spent most of out time the first two months just getting things for the place, like grown up things. Futon and a fancy coffee table. Table mats, rice cooker, coasters, home things. I lost my full time position at COTS but they took me on as a permanent part time, I was grateful for that and it didn't bother me, I just looked for a second job. The summer went by and in July I decided I wanted a pet, because I was lonely went I was in the apartment alone and not used to having no one around. That's when I got Blizzard. If you know anything about me or have even glanced at my blog you'd realize my rabbit is half of my life. My other half is coming up...
Shortly after bunny, I broke up with Buzz. That was a downer but liberating all the same. then, I turned 21. My birthday was depressing. Bar were fun at first and still are in moderation, but I was down about Buzz. Though, life goes on and I got asked to be permanent full time at COTS working with contracts too.
In September David moved up to Vermont. It was something that I had been wanting for a while. The south was ruining him and he lost his job. I hadn't had him as a friend in years and finally we could hang out again! I got him to doctors, got him to the dentists, got him on antidepressants! He is doing great, he seems happy now. Happiest I've seen him in a long time and I am glad to be a part of it.
October I decided to get a cat. I wanted a kitten while Blizzard was young too. So I got the other half of my heart, Thunder. When holiday time came I dress them in Santa outfits. It was the first Christmas I could spend lots of money on my family. It felt nice. I need to get my dad a beer brewing kit, I haven't ordered it yet though unfortunately. I hope he uses it. Me and my step dad, whom I call Dad, have become very close and it's nice to have a good relationship with one of my parents. I've never had a good relationship with Mom or my biological father, but me and Dad call each other fairly often and it's always nice. I've been trying to encourage him to get a job up here because I think it would cheer him up and he'd make more money. I got Christopher, the youngest brother, a violin, and Petey a DS Lite. I hope they both like them. It feels nice to actually be able to give them stuff without them worrying about money. When I was their age I was always worried around Christmas because I knew our family couldn't afford it, I don't want them to worry about money ever again.
Now, it is 2013. I can only move forward, so here are my resolutions:
Read 22 books
Speak French on a conversational level
Improve guitar skills
Improve bass skills
Improve ukulele skills, memorize ukulele chords
Learn some violin
Lose 10 pounds
Get under eye plastic surgery
Get on a good amount of ADD medication
Go back to college
Keep Thunder and Blizzard alive
Set up payment on Mom's parent plus loan
Get rabbit tattoo
Cut back on smoking
Help David get custody of Emma Leigh
Learn how to text in Japanese
That's what I have so far. I've already made th consultation for my plastic surgery and memorized about half of the hiragana. Thunder got his last shots today. I got switched to Adderall, and I'm pretty happy. And it's only four days into the new year!!!
Hope everyone else's is starting off as good. ;D
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