Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Speaking For The Dead

Today in the last day of 2013.  I would like to start talking about my old New Year resolutions and what new ones I have for 2014, but I can't do that yet.  2013 was a hell of a year.  It was a damn hard year and a lot of people died. I want to give a moment to acknowledge everyone I know who has died in 2013. 

Prince Blizzard Lapin Bin Bin (Died at 10 months old on March 10th, 2013)


I have blogged about the death of my baby boy already.  On March 10th, 2013 my precious Blizzard left us for the rainbow bridge.  This tore me up.  I have not had a day since that I do not think of him.  He is everywhere to me.  Around my neck, in a box on my bookshelf, on the wall of the bunny room, in the eyes of his brother Thunder, in my heart.  Blizzard, I know you aren't into blogging so I doubt you are reading this from Heaven, but baby I love you so much and I miss you everyday.  I still cry over you, and I still brag about you whenever I can.  You mean the world to me, Blizzy.  I hope you are binkying to your hearts content up there in the clouds.

Jacob Powell (Died at 24 years old on May 1st, 2013)


2 months after Blizzard died, my ex boyfriend Jacob Powell died.  He wasn't exactly my boyfriend, but he took me out on dates and did boyfriend/girlfriend things.  He was my brother's friend.   I met him at an open mic I had at my house.  He brought wine and was rude to me.  I later thanked him for coming and he invited me to Waffle House.  We spent hours everyday at Waffle House, smoking cigarettes, drinking coffee, and arguing.    We would argue about music, movies, books, Walt Disney, economics, morals, politics, psychology, everything.  All we did was argue and it was so fun.  Once he called me and told me to get dressed, he was picking me up.  We drove for a while, but he wouldn't tell me where we were going.  Eventually wearrived at The Mellow Mushroom in Ocean Springs.  One of my favorite pizza joints that I hadn't been to in years.  I mentioned the restaurant briefly to him once and he remembered.  

He would do sweet stuff like that but always wanted to act real cool.  He played guitar with my brother, and got along well with my parents and little brothers.  He was a good man. He had a baby with wonderful woman named Jennifer.  His daughter's name in Finn.  She is a beautiful baby.  Jacob died in the hospital, where he was getting a risky surgery done in hopes of living a healthier life with Finn.  Jacob, you are a strong man to risk your life for that surgury.  Your daughter is growing up well, I stalk her pictures and she is beautiful!  Thank you for being my friend in a time when I had no one.  Maybe you are too cool for school, but you were good to me.  Thank you.  I remember one time you told me you loved me, I love you too Jacob.  I know you are an atheist, but if there is an afterlife, I hope it is treating you well.  

Khiry Thomas (Died at 22 years old on April 29th, 2013)


Around Jacob's death, my classmate from high school took his life after trying to take the life of his own son.  Khiry Thomas, I don't know what you went through.  You were such a funny guy in class.  You were in the excellerated English classes with me and I remember you were so intelligent though you would try to hide it.  You would act tough or goofy but you would have moments of profoundness.  I don't know why you did what you did, but Khiry, I know you are in the Lord's hands.  I hope you have found the peace and the answers you were looking for when you pulled that trigger.   

Casey Boman  (Died at 23 years old on August 8th, 2013.)


Casey Boman was the brother of my Uncle Donnie.  He was a musician in Louisiana that was pretty well known, for good reason— his music was good.  He came to Christmas at my house once when I was 17.  I remember my brother and I being intimidated that THE Casey Boman was coming to our house for Christmas.  He was actually a sweetheart and we drove around town trying to find something to do on Christmas Day in a small Mississippi town.  He had a baby before he left, but over dosed in Texas.  Casey, I am so sorry this has happened to you.  You had a rough life, but I hope you have found the peace you deserve.

Peter Henry van Erp Senior (Died at age 87 on November 18th, 2013)


My grandfather died.  Peter Henry van Erp Senior, who was from the Netherlands.  My memories of him always included him yelling at me in a thick Dutch accent for doing something silly.  My grandpa was an amazing chef, and I've had the pleasure of eating his delicious food.  My father got to see him before he left, I am very happy for this because my father loves him a lot.  From the stories I've heard, Grandpa had a full life.  I love you Grandpa, I hope you are resting in peace.

2013 took too many lives away.  I don't have much to say other than I love y'all and you are not forgotten.  

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