Today is Easter and even though I got called in to work 8am until 2pm I am going to enjoy myself as much as possible. But I'm super sleepy it is painful. I experience pain when I'm sleepy. My body hurts and my head throbs, is this normal? I made coffee but that was a horrible mistake. I haven't drank coffee in months since stomach pain got so bad I was throwing up every morning. I brought Tums to work with me because I thought since I have cut back on the acidic stuff it wouldn't hurt too bad. But it really hurts. I think I've done permanent damage to my tummy. There were time that I was drinking up to ten cups of coffee a day - usually at Waffle House. But after I got my first stomach ulcer last July - right around my 20th birthday. The destruction started when I was working three jobs and going to an art school. Drank a lot of coffee and snorted energy pills. I was dumb. I was drinking on the weekends at that time. After I went back to Mississippi I didn't drink alcohol too much but I took pills and started drinking coffee heavily. Adderal didn't help. Neither did loratabs since I'm allergic to synthetic opiates. I started throwing up pretty regularly. I even got thrush. When I came back to Vermont I started drinking again. It got increasingly worse until I got my ulcer and a kidney infection. I did some drugs then too. I think when I ODed on Addies is when the stomach issues got serious. I was throwing up constantly for two days. I almost chewed my tongue off that night I swear. The moral of the story is I can't drink coffee anymore even though I don't do drugs, I don't drink, and I'm down to a pack of cigarettes a week. I'm like one of those cartoon kids you see in Dare activity books. "Kim used to drink and do drugs and now she can't drink coffee."
I'm not bragging and honestly I don't know how much I like admitting my flaws but I want to be honest to myself here. But holy shit this is not really Easter talk is it? Well, I am going to a funeral home for Easter and going to drink little alcohol. Jeez I'm like Harold in Harold and Maude.
In other bright and cheery news, I got dumplings with my boyfriend yesterday and then I went to work and ordered this super cute iPhone holder. Also, there is a bow in my hair today.
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