Dark circles under the eyes are a problem for every lady (why does concealer exist?) but more for some than others. There are various different reasons for dark circles, many people blame lack of sleep and stress. Some people (usually Asian or African American, from the articles I've read) have dark circles due to pigment discoloration in the under eye area. And then there are people like me, who genetically have thin skin under their eyes so that you can see the blood vessels and shadow and hallows underneath.
This was me yesterday morning, as you can see my appearance has improved. (With hard work and money!) My complexion is better thanks to Pro Active and The Body Shop skin treatments. I'm growing my eyebrows out for a (hopefully) Emma Watson like full eyebrow look. My face is thinner thanks to losing 15-20 pound (honestly, mainly due to being prescribed Adderall.) My lips are not as chapped (an ongoing problem) because of copious Vaseline on my lips everyday. And my dark circles, yes, they are much better. Thanks to spending over $100 in creams and lotions, facial masks and cucumbers (to be fair, some of those cucumbers went to my rabbits) I cut down on smoking A LOT and drink much more water. Yes, the dark circles have improved. But what if they were completely gone? If I could go to a doctor's for a half an hour, leave with mild bruising, pay only $500-$600 for something that would last a year (and get a payment plan for it, no less) And not worry about dark circles? Well yes I would try that.
It has nothing to do with lack of self esteem or intelligence. I like to consider myself a smart person, despite my lighthearted posts and demeanor when socializing.
(My main reason for lightheartedness is that people find that more relaxing and fun. Lighthearted people make others happy, often. If I can communicate with others via blog- internet or in person, I want them to be happy and relaxed. Then they can be themselves and put down their facades and defensive walls. You may think "Oh Kim, you are so noble." Or, "Oh Kim, you are so caring for other's feelings." But really it is as much of a defense mechanism and other people's walls. Where others are good at facades and being careful who they show themselves to, I am awful at it. I am very open and direct. The only why to feel comfortable talking with someone is if they are the same way.)
So, my point is, I like to think of myself as not being an idiot. But, I care about how I look, too.
You might call it "perfectionism," but I like to think that I just hold myself to a high standard. I set high goals for myself to achieve. Examples: read my age in books every year (so read 22 books this year) or practice French on Duolingo. Write daily. Save money for my little brothers' college. These are goals. I also have superficial goals. Like getting rid of the circles under my eyes. Why? Because I like making my body look how I want it to.
I have augmented it with 13 different piercings, I have a chest piece and 5 other tattoos. I have already decorated it. Now I want to decorate in a more subtle manner and THIS is where people think poorly of me.
Dye your hair any color you wish, or is that too vain? Inject permanent INK into your skin, but not fillers that are invisible, completely safe, and go away after a year. I just don't see the difference.
Now the people, such as my lady friends, who look poorly on this - they mean well. They assure me that I am a pretty girl who doesn't need it. I appreciate the love they give me, I'm sure I would tell them something similar if they chose to pursue cosmetic surgery. (They are pretty girls.)
Maybe it is all the sci fi I have read, but I see nothing wrong in body augmentation. Make me a cyborg with an arm that turns into a rail gun, any day. I'm there. Sign me up. That would be sweet. But also put fillers under my eyes so I can be a sexy beast like Motoko.
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